Natural High

Or something to that degree. I don't fully understand it. Maybe this is an episode or something of that nature, but this empowered high been gradually increasing in intensity ever since my trip to LA. I'm always horny now. I feel awakened. It's a lingering feeling that's been constant for three weeks now. I feel flirty, but I remain in control of my actions. I'm feel dominant - until I want to be submissive. Everything has been 'screaming' louder, faster, brighter.

I feel as though I am channeling an aura of upbeat charisma around me. I find myself dancing to the music that's playing in my head all the time. Almost literally. Every dull moment: waiting in line, sitting on the bus, buying food. I have a hop in my step; music or not.

Today I was in the subway during rush hour. I was sitting down and was thoroughly enjoying my future house / big room mix. I felt this pent up, rush of 'hype'. I don't know how else to describe it. But between the loud music in my ears and the seizure inducing video - I just wanted to lean over my knees and scream at the top of my lungs. I somehow convinced myself that passengers in the tightly packed subway car would understand. But I somehow thought that they would appreciate it, rather than freak out over someone screaming randomly.

Possible constituents to this new empowered self:

- turned on to other women

- business trips

- joined new communities

- ‎knowing better how I work, what I want, and what I need

I've never had a significant chemical high. Is this close? I might be going through an episode.

At least it's a positive one.

#EmotionalHigh